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It's been a while.
I figured I needed an outlet for my emotions.
Well, here I am.
After much emotional ups and downs, I can say I've kinda settled down.
Well, today's just a short post.
Actually, that silly little boy must be too tired to reply my text. I can understand though, his attachment wears him out. I hope he gets enough sleep...
It's been a month and a half with him. I want to spend more time with him, as long as we can go. But who knows what'll happen in the future? Haha. I guess I'll take things as they come my way(:
Moving to another topic, I'm actually in a dilemma now.
I recently signed up for the OIP trip to Chengdu, SiChuan. It basically means that if I get chosen, I'll fly to China to study one of my modules there. But...it's 5 weeks long.
5 weeks.
I'm scared. Scared of being away from my mum. Scared of being away from my baby. Scared of being such a coward. I'm just thinking: How will I ever survive those 5 weeks without the people I love the most? It's gonna be one heck of a study trip.
And and and I'll miss Grandioso...! :(
/sighs....
But then again, if I don't grab the chance to go for the trip this time, I might not get another opportunity like this in year 2 or 3.
Decisions, decisions, decisions.
I'll think about this another day. Just thinking about it makes me upset.
I should probably go to sleep now.
Actually, that silly little boy must be too tired to reply my text. I can understand though, his attachment wears him out. I hope he gets enough sleep...
It's been a month and a half with him. I want to spend more time with him, as long as we can go. But who knows what'll happen in the future? Haha. I guess I'll take things as they come my way(:
Moving to another topic, I'm actually in a dilemma now.
I recently signed up for the OIP trip to Chengdu, SiChuan. It basically means that if I get chosen, I'll fly to China to study one of my modules there. But...it's 5 weeks long.
5 weeks.
I'm scared. Scared of being away from my mum. Scared of being away from my baby. Scared of being such a coward. I'm just thinking: How will I ever survive those 5 weeks without the people I love the most? It's gonna be one heck of a study trip.
And and and I'll miss Grandioso...! :(
/sighs....
But then again, if I don't grab the chance to go for the trip this time, I might not get another opportunity like this in year 2 or 3.
Decisions, decisions, decisions.
I'll think about this another day. Just thinking about it makes me upset.
I should probably go to sleep now.
Here's to me updating more frequently in the future. Hopefully. lol.
going off with a photo..
going off with a photo..
goodnight world.
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it's true I'm here, and I'm just as strange as you.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until its done. It's that easy, and that hard.”
Thank you for taking the time to read my thought tidbits.